Breaking the Silence

December 5, 2016

How has it been almost four years since I shared our journey with you? We have so much catching up to do! For those of you just joining this blog, welcome! Let me recap where we have been.

In 2010 I got very sick with a fungus called aspergillus in my lungs and at almost 300 pounds of weight I was quite literally “Fat, Sick, & Nearly Dead” (great documentary btw). It was a huge wake up call for my husband and I, and although my health struggle continued for several years we began a journey to physical, emotional, & spiritual health. We began with what we could control, since so much of my health problems were out of our control, and joined Weight Watchers, attended a weekly meeting, found a trainer, exercised almost daily, and began to learn about having a chemical free home. In 2011 I felt God leading me to share our journey with others so I began writing in this blog and sharing via my Naked in the Potter’s Hand Facebook page. We moved to New Jersey in April of 2013 and my husband became the Pastor of Shadyrest Bible Church on May 19, 2013. By that time, through diet & exercise together we had lost approximately 214 pounds!!!!

As we moved to New Jersey I was at the height of my health crisis having 12 cases of bronchitis/pneumonia and 55 weeks of bedrest in only 2 ½ years. Our beloved church family was abundantly gracious when we arrived very aware of my fragile health. (*Please note, what I am sharing here has zero to do with the people of Shadyrest Bible Church, it’s a wonderful place filled with awesome loving people-so come check us out sometime!) Beyond my health struggles the move brought so much change into our world. I have learned through this journey that I am not the best at navigating change in the best of circumstances, and with my health the way it was these were hardly the best circumstances. Our move brought a new job for my husband, a new church family, new friends, new home, new neighborhoods, new routines, new daily/weekly schedules, new Weight Watchers group, new grocery stores, new gyms, ….. and I could go on and on but I think you get the point. Many things stayed the same, we still maintain a chemical free home, I still LOVE to cook healthy meals with real unprocessed foods, and we still drink only water (and a lot of it!). However, in the end that amount of change rocked my world and rattled me to the core. Our healthy routines began to decline and we regained much of the weight we had lost.

I honestly believe part of why it has taken me this long to break the silence is because I have wrestled with SO MUCH shame and regret from regaining so much weight. The emotional journey is much harder to navigate than the physical and the Lord has been so beautifully and remarkably faithful through it all. 2016 has been a great year of refocus on our health filled with emotional & spiritual healing. I have learned SO MUCH about myself over the last few years that I can’t wait to share with you. A big lesson I have learned is that life is a journey, with ups & downs, successes & failures, disappointment & great joy. As I reflect on my own personal journey, I’ve learned is no matter what you face to NEVER GIVE UP! Never give up on Jesus, on yourself, and on your journey to health.

This site chronicles my personal journey to regaining my physical, emotional, & spiritual health. Being transformed day by day! Naked means: uncovered, stripped away, or bare. I don’t want anything to get in the way of God’s plan for my life. I see God as a Master Potter molding me into the final product he desires. I hope you’ll join me as I continue this journey toward heath, 2017 is going to be EPIC! Welcome to my adventure!

11 thoughts on “Breaking the Silence

  1. Marjorie Klinger says:

    I am so proud of your journey. It takes courage to put it all out there, but you have what it takes. I love you so much.

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